Blog Tour: Yes, Master by Margaret McHeyzer

My uncle abused me. I was 10 years old when it started. At 13 he told me I was no longer wanted because I had started to develop. At 16 I was ready to kill him. Today, I’m broken. Today, I only breathe to survive. My name’s Sergeant Major Ryan Jenkins and today, I’m ready to tell you my story. “Master would flog me if I did, she won’t be happy when I tell her what happened here.” “Master?” “Stella.” Oh, Master.
Rachel's 4-4.5 Star Review~
I don't really know how to review this book.  So instead of talking about the book itself, it'll be based on how I felt.   Based on title alone, I was SO excited to read it.  By the time I read it for our Blog Tour, I had heard some things that made me question reading it.  I said I would so I did.  While the details surrounding Ryan's life are so heartwrenching, the subject matter of his childhood and flashbacks brings tears to my eyes and makes me sick to my stomach, I didn't want to like the book.  But I did...I understand that there are people out there similar to Ryan.  I understand that there are children every day being abused, physically, mentally, verbally, sexually...
The writing style of Ms. McHeyzer was amazing, it reads more like a Dateline piece than just a book  It's a story that is so real, it's filed under my title Not Quite Fiction.  It makes you think, how can I help?  What can I do so someone's life isn't turned upside down and inside out like Ryan's was.  A couple of years ago there was a big push in our community for Foster Parents, both long term and short term.  I thought about it briefly.  My reason for not pursuing was that my kids were 8 and 10 at the time, and I was worried about being asked to take on an older child that had been sexually abused.  I didn't want my children around a child that could feasibly abuse my children....teaching what he had been taught.  After reading this book, I'm actually quite pissed with myself about that decision.  Maybe had I taken a child in, I could have helped by just being a caring "parental" figure, instead I'm extremely selfish by not wanting my children around another child that had been abused, when for all I know they are surrounded by them at school and sporting events on a daily basis.
So, did I enjoy the book?  Somewhat...The way Ryan and Mason interacted and then the relationship with Stella, YES.   The prologue, the flashbacks, the dog?  NO, not so much, but like I said before, it's not the writing, it's not the story, it's just the actual subject matter itself that gave me the FUCK NO's...  That's why I didn't know how to rate or really review this book.

I startle awake as I leap off the bed and sprawl on the floor. “Ry!” Mason yells from the other side of the door. I jump up off the floor and swing the bedroom door open. “You scared the shit out of me, Mason.” I run my hand over my eyes and face trying to wake up. “What do you want, man?” But I’m met with silence. When I look over at Mase, he’s staring at my body. He’s mouth’s open and his eyes are so wide. He rakes his stare down my body, then back up again. He lifts an eyebrow as he ogles me. I look down and notice I’m completely naked. I fell asleep on my bed with just the towel wrapped around me and he scared me with his bashing that now I’m standing before him totally exposed. He’s not moving away, and neither am I. “Mason.” I lower my voice as he looks up at me and just stares. He can see straight through me, totally bare and open, for him to see all my secrets. “We need to leave in an hour,” Mase says as he takes a step closer to me. I can feel his heat, and my body instantly reacts to him. Don’t be a coward Ryan, just reach out and touch him. His brown eyes turn from a hard brown into a molten chocolate as we stand a mere step apart from each other. Our breathing is labored and rapid. Mason reaches forward and brings his hand up to my chest, but before he touches me, his demeanor changes and he retracts it, dropping it beside his body. “I can’t,” he whispers as he turns away from me and goes into his bedroom. My head spins as I close my door and stand completely ashamed in my room. He doesn’t want me. Why would he? I’m broken. 20140225-162437.jpg
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I don't do 'normal'. I've found that the more I write, the more I like being different to other authors. I write in first person, and I love to challenge a reader. I take the normal and switch it around. For me, I really enjoy getting a reaction from a reader. So if I can evoke an emotion (regardless of if it's the emotion the reader wants) then I figure that I've done my job as an author I want to be. I really quite revel in taking people out of their comfort zones and pushing them to read something different. My genre of writing is, well quite frankly, where ever my mind goes. I won't label myself because I don't like sticking to one genre. My goal with writing is just to take people away from whatever is going on in their lives, even if it's only for a split second. I'm a go with the flow sort of person and don't really take a course of action to get where I am going. I live in the moment and don't usually worry about tomorrow because whatever life is due to bring me, I'll be happy to accept. I love my family and friends and will help anyway I can if someone needs it. I really don't like people that are nasty just because they can be, I don't believe that's necessary, I mean life's hard enough as it is! I hope you enjoy my books, I've had a hoot writing them. There's more to come..... Til next time. M xx
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